The Hottest Summer Ever

Temperatures rising...
As the season segues into June
The time of Ice cold lemonades
and lazy afternoons

A picture perfect atmosphere,
Camouflaging an array of silent whispers, side glances, & 2nd Looks
An unnecessary undertone to the story, like an extra chapter in a book

This recipe for disaster
Feeding my appetite for destruction,
Like your bullshit is the secret ingredient in my special sauce,
Collectively perpetuating my chaos theory, *take a breathe* but wait...

Before u almost compromise my inner Lady.
or your bullshit eases under my skin, creeps into my soul and taints my inner peace
Reconsider your target... I'm not the one to fuck with

I'm Laughing because I see it in you... My words got you all "mad"?
*maybe* But before any of you bitches decide to jump bad,

I'm warning you that I'm not who you think I am
Nothing is ever as it seems....
the mirror that reflects your facade is so easily shattered,
I could plot your demise while asleep in my dreams...

Your not Hidden, I see you...
Your animosity is visible like the one rain cloud that fucks up the clear blue sky
Yeah... I see you
Snakes in the grass, waiting for an opportunity for bare feet to step too close
I See You
But a real enemy only attacks when the opponent feels most confident and carefree,
So Yeah Bitches... I See You
the real question is... Do you bitches see me?

It is irrational to fear an event if when that even occurs we are not in existence... and since when death is, we are not, and when we are, death is not,
Then its irrational to fear death - Lucretius'

Help Please

*LOST DOG*


I Need your Help Finding Frankie, He Was Last Seen Around the Broad St/James Road Area.
If You Have Seen Him or Have Any Information Please Contact Me. He is Very Missed
Reward for Any Information or His Safe Return
Email: iFoundFrankie@gmail.com 24 hours a day

About Two Minutes, Just Long Enough for Me to Finish My Point....

Rallys Banana Shakes

I Guess It Shouldnt Surprise Me Anymore That i Can Stay Awake for 4 Days at Time. Yet Still, I Get Bored, VERY Bored and Sometimes i Wish Someone Was Awake With Me. I Know Thats just Another Way Frankie Kept Me Alive...

Truth Is

Ive never not gotten what i wanted before... its sad, but its true. I have previously always been able to manipulate my environment to my advantage. ( not to my complete advantage, but at least in my favor somehow) So i have absolutely no idea how to deal with my present emotions, and they are taking a tremendous toll on my mental an physical well being & on my general happiness
In turn i sit and i suffer in silence. too ashamed to admit my defeat, too unwilling to be categorized with other women that at one point in my life i felt sorry for, women that i sympathized for... but now i understand, and my empathy for them runs deep.

Yet Still... i cant admit it. i cant admit i want you.. in some ways need you.. and that my heart desires you with an appetite i cant suppress.
But i dont want you... i want you under my terms and to my satisfaction. no half ass efforts and sup-par attempts to regain my trust or my faith. I deserve 100% .. hell i deserve more. and if you wont give it to me, im praying god will send someone who will. Even though i prefer it is you because you are all ive ever known. if it isnt you who will put me first, i hope my experience with you wont have damaged me to the point where i am blind to the person that will. and that one day the sadness my soul feels is one day replaced with happiness again. but i can only pray

My pride with be my demise

Writing...

Writing all the things i should of said.... but now i never will.